Friday, December 14, 2012

in which i am entirely honest...

i have to say, i am not really sure how this whole project is going to pan out...but one of the most important lessons i've learned in the past few years is that the "how" of things is truly none of my concern. so instead of trying to think through how i can be the most successful at what i am wanting to do here, i am just going to trust that its already figured out and be as honest and genuine as i can, trusting the right doors and windows will show themselves when open. and that the right eyes will find this space and be transformed by it.

basically, i intend to share my life and interests here...sometimes i will do that through words, writing to you as if you are my best friend and i will literally burst if i don't tell you what all i have recently learned and experienced. or i'll share the thoughts and writings of those who have gone before, the well known and the obscure...i have a lot of heroes and many dead folks have been consulted in my growth, i want to share my love affairs with these minds of our past with you.

other times, i will communicate through images. i am in the process of developing my own creative voice as a visual artist and this will definitely be a springboard for that journey. art pretty much comprises the whole of my soul's diet and creativity is what i live for. writing, drawing, painting, dancing, singing and the making of music, storytelling, literature, cinema...these are the mediums through which we share the divine with one another. i recently watched a wonderful TEDTalk video featuring elizabeth gilbert, in which she discusses ancient opinions about creativity and where it comes from in contrast with the more modern attitude that has seemingly destined the now common experience of mental instability as a result of being a creator in life. its absolutely wonderful and i definitely suggest watching it, but my favorite tidbit from her talk was when she spoke of the matadors of spain and how when they would do something especially fantastic, the crowd would shout "ole! ole! ole!" which was a word adapted from the arabic "allah"...meaning, they were shouting "god! god! god! god is here!" that really resonated with me, and i feel like its our job to bring god to the world of form by expressing ourselves creatively.

i really want to share the path i've traversed in order to be where i am today. i've existed on some extreme ends of the spectrum in the realm of the mind, the body and the spirit and as a result i have come to the conclusion that every single person on the planet is in complete control of who they are and who they become. personal power is one of the most important elements of this unexplainable reality of which we are apart and hardly anyone has fully realized the implications. i feel i have achieved an incredibly deep understanding of this truth and it is my responsibility to share what i have learned with others...especially women.

which brings me to probably one of my biggest passions...redefining the ideal woman for the new earth. if that doesn't make any sense to you, please...stay with me. no matter how weird shit gets here. i am a woman who believes that only you can save yourself, that the only way to receive the love of another is to love yourself wholly and completely first, that attachment to those who give you love isn't serving you, and how attachment to the material is down right killing your creative spirit, your divine essence, your mental faculties, and your relationships. fear is our greatest enemy and its also a completely curable phenomenon.

i feel like courage is the cornerstone for the all of the great virtues missing from our culture. that our cowardice has run us as a society into a convenient and comfortable grave. our desire to be secure has led us to sacrifice everything that is inherently valuable to our humanity. i am not at all happy about this trade our society has made and i am living my life in utter rebellion of these decisions made for me before i was born. i am working every day towards creating the life that i want. i am creatively contributing to my own reality every second by the thoughts i focus on and the emotions i allow to arise within me...everything is connected.  and i want to help others understand these truths.



by the way, my name is jennifer. comments are always welcome and appreciated, no matter what you have to say. light and love to all of my fellow travelers. wherever your path leads you, know you are never alone.

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